Heart Checks And Lessons.
I can honestly say that before 2016 I don’t remember really watching people. By that I mean I wasn’t checking for anyone but my father and my self then my mother-siblings as a unit, in that order. If your were not on that list I cared not what you thought, did, wanted, didn’t, planned, said or nothing. And I mean NOTHING.
For a while my excuse was that I had school to focus on, after that I had a business to setup and I just did not care about people enough to even be aware of their intentions for themselves let alone their heart postures towards me. It just wasn’t a concern of mine and never occurred to me that there’s a possibility of people being hated simply because they mind their literal business and are focused on being the best they can be. Not once did I ever consider that if you surround yourself with people who are either lost or prone to envy that your very breath could be endangered. Well, as those results showed that was utter foolishness. You can’t see if you don’t watch and that means you’re flying blind in life. Discernment is practically impossible if you’re not watching and praying as you do.
When my parents died and I hit pause. My spirit said STOP! I must have overlooked some shit, I want to know what they are and how they affect me. First of all what is most important in life? GOD. Got it. Next? People. I see. What people specifically? And there began a Journey of watching and learning wisdom for living with men as we all must from The HOLY SPIRIT.
This blog is not about the university load of lessons on the subject people. What this zooms in on is this one specific lesson to remember to watch the ones who can never seem to celebrate your accomplishments. That’s a life tip, thank me later. If they ignore it altogether? And you know they know? Run. Never ever expose your inner life to people who can look you in the face and pretend you’re not on a billboard somewhere or your song isn’t topping a chart or you didn’t just have a baby. Even if you didn’t tell them about said project? Run. It’s just an excuse to hate without guilt. Same applies for those who ignore your grief BTW. Notice how those who get the most offended by your silent moves don’t tell you theirs either. If you really check it? they’re just upset that you finally caught on and stopped over sharing your own life. If you care for an answer or they are blatant enough to complain to you personally Just quickly ask them how they supported your endeavors all the other times you told them “ahead of time”.
This lack of cheerleaders in my life only became obvious to me in the absence of my parents and baby brother specifically. Growing up I was a child celebrated by both my parents. I guess I was so filled by their commendation and applause and encouragement that I didn’t notice that no one else around me was doing the same. I don’t remember a single ‘cheer’ from anyone else in my life about good things I had ever done or gotten in my life except from the three members of my family currently in heaven with The LORD. It’s like the enemy targeted my support system specially.
At first I was surprised by this realization and then I was offended and then I became grateful to God. First for exposing it so that it’s not a sour wound or gaping hole I go out into the world with looking to be filled and then for Him basically inoculating me from a dependence on the applause of men in the process of enduring their silence. The encouragement of people have become a nice to have rather than a need to have. I’m also very thankful that the process didn’t darken my heart to retaliate. I’ve chucked it up to if they could, they would and since they wouldn’t I will continue to because I am judged for my own actions and they have theirs to face. I have since received the understanding that GOD’s applause and encouragement as you may also find is more than enough, and besides…
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,
NIV Bible – Hebrews 12:1
Remember, believers, you are never unwatched and never without cheers as you run the race of your life.
