See, that dude already expressed that he liked me for months prior to it happening so when it happened my reflex was to turn it into a relationship so it wouldn’t be a total L. Joke’s on me though, didn’t know he was already engaged. THANK GOD because I was literally about to make myself marry this desperate and despicable human because I wanted to hide the shame and pretend like nothing happened. What an awful awful hell that would have been. Imagine your fiancé raping someone. PRAISE GOD ANYWAY, he definitely wished i’ld turn it into a marriage so I’m glad it didn’t.
Of course that all came to a screeching halt once his potential golden goose “aka my father died. It’s sad that it took that divine disruption for this loser to detach. God literally saved my ass from hell. Imagine being stuck living in denial with that bullshit of a human. Thank you Apa.
Anyway this “explanation” is only here because it needs to. My book was vague on the context and since it’s out it might as well be properly out. I don’t regret sharing it, it’s been a major factor I’m my healing and forgiving the asshole.
There you go.
It’s shocking the coping mechanisms the human mind is willing to deploy to avoid facing reality. Very glad GOD has healed me mind, body and spirit. If you disapprove of me writing this, you are entitled to your opinions as am I.
